I woke up this morning (no joke! I did, seriously, even now I'm awake!) and like the sad geek that I am the first thing I do is check my emails and read my favorite blogs.

Well someone posted something which caused a few tears to flow down my first-thing-in-the-morning-bleary-eyed-not-yet-shaven-face. It was a totally honest post about personal pain and heart ache which was really pretty close in some ways to things I've been going through. I really don't want to elaborate on it any more than that.

What has been going through my mind is that sometimes there are no answers to why things happen and we can't always explain the way we feel. There are times when it 'just is' a certain way and any real exploration into the details of how we might feel about something or someone need to come later on. Your heart sometimes needs time to work things out, as does your head.

I think part of life and learning that there are not always clear cut answers to things is the ability to live with loose ends, and that's about trust. In a previous post I talked about leaning on God and Him never letting us down. I think where there are 'loose ends', we have to be ok with that and simply trust God, and that He has it under control and that He's working all things out for our good. Even the painful things. Nothing is ever wasted and even though it's so hard to see why things happen sometimes, God has a plan and a purpose.

Those are pretty fragmented thoughts. I've been meaning to write this all day and now I come to write it I can't make the words fit. I hope it sort of makes sense.

There are plenty of simple pleasures in life to be had if you look for them. One of mine is stationery.

Earlier on I went and bought some gel-pens and a small pin-board/notice board thing, a note book and some glue. I don't really 'need' these things. I already have pens, lots of them, and I have glue. Still I never know when I might run out?! That would be awful! So I have to get reserve supplies ;)

It might be weird or sad but I don't care..

I have this fantasy, no, fantasy is the wrong word..dream? no. We'll go with dream anyway..

In the future my wonderful wife and I are taking part in some game show on TV. The game show host, lets call him 'Bob', is asking each of the contestant couples how they met. It comes round to our turn.

Bob: So, how did you guys meet?
Wife: Well, we actually met while shopping for office supplies..
Me: Yes, you could say that a mutual passion for stationery bought us together..(I laugh)
Wife: Oooh yes! Especially gel pens..we just lurrrrrrve gel pens!!!! (giggles uncontrollably)
Me: Bob, don't get us started on gel pens..isn't this a family show?