2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

When I am weak, Christ is strong.

It constantly amazes me that I spend so much time doing my own thing, thinking I've got everything under control and not spending the time I should with my Lord, growing my love for Him. I have these moments when I burn for Him, little glimpses of how much He loves me. He loves me with a passion that I will never comprehend, and that's fine with me, that's the way it is for now, but I want to experience more of those glimpses, I want to know more of Him.

What causes me to almost weep sometimes is my ability, in the next breath, to turn back to my own priorities and plans. To loosen my grip on the one who holds my life in His hand, the one who gazes at me, with a love in His eyes the depth of which I can never understand. The one who died for me and saved me. Why would I do that? it makes no sense to me at all!

And even more unfathomable, when I wonder off and do my own thing, forgetting to speak to Him, sometimes ignoring Him, he waits for me. Faithfully, patiently, longing for me to look His way again. And when I do return full of tears and apology, He tells me He loves me, dries my tears and tells me I'm His child and it's ok.

Talking to a friend recently, I think we both decided that sometimes you just have to be silent before God. Still. In awe of who He is because there are just no words to describe how much He's done for us, how awesome His grace, mercy and forgiveness towards us really is, and how just passionately He loves us.