I think my brain is turning into goo. Work today sucked, really sucked. My job is great, I love the people I work with and I'm so lucky to have the job I have, but sometimes I wonder if I'd be that upset if I never saw another computer as long as I live. Really.

A lot of this is goo induced. I have a cold, which doesn't bother me all that much, but my head felt like it was going to pop, I guess it did actually, I has a little nose bleed which I sometimes get when I have a cold and I'm all congested, after that I felt a bit better.

I've been struggling a bit at work lately due to other things happening in my life and a general lack of motivation. I have this urge to just go back to bed and not really be that bothered about getting up. I'm not too impressed with that, I mean what sort of an attitude to have is that? Still, it's real and I need to do something about it.

I think I need to put some obnoxious music on and get a grip on myself. To accompany my general lack of motivation there's been a general lack of focus which seems to be a problem that I've had for quite a bit now for one reason or another. I don't want to excuse myself about this though. For a while I thought I was allowed to feel this way, to take some time to rest and figure it out or something, but it's just really laziness. If there's stuff to deal with then I need to deal with it. I need to formulate a plan and do something.

I need to get to bed earlier, I need to get up earlier and eat breakfast. When I'm at work I need to give work my best and when I'm doing other stuff I need to have some fun, I need to be creative and I need to not think so much.

I also need to seek God about what He wants me to do. I know He doesn't always drop a plan in your lap, He probably just wants me to spend some time with Him for starters and enjoy myself a bit more, so I think I'll start there. When I stop chatting with God then it all tends to go down the drain.

Ha! So, well, we'll see. I think Obnoxious music is definitely in order and if the sun would come out I might be able to take some half decent pictures! hey and where are all the ideas for my bio? Questions people! I need questions...come on, the three people that read this, give me some questions!

Tonight is band practice at church, I think I'll go and play some rather inappropriate loud thrash guitar.