Something burns inside of me, deep within the depths of my being. If I look into that place I'm overcome with a passion I cannot describe, a joy and strength I cannot put into words. What breaks my heart is that I only seem to glance momentarily toward this place, when it could be a constant source of strength and peace. It's God. So close I forget He's there, closer than my skin. Living in me! I don't think I'll ever get my head around that. How about you?

Certain things focus my attention beautifully on Him, on what matters, wonderfully distracting me from all my silly distractions. Someone reminded me of my love for Hymns. I'm so thankful for new songs, music, styles of worship, but very few modern choruses touch my heart in quite the same way as Amazing Grace, Come Thou Fount of every blessing and It is well, with my soul. There's a truth, an honesty, a reverence to these hymns. It's not easy to describe. The make my heart burn and bring tears to my eyes.

I get the same feeling when I thumb through my grandfathers old leather bible. I have one quite like it now, but I love to handle and read his, I love to smell it. It reminds me of him. It reminds me of his faithfulness to God, the reverence he had for the Lord and also the respect that people had for him. It reminds me of all those faithful elders who have been there throughout my years in church, living examples of faith.

I want to be just as faithful, an example of faith and love just as they were. It's so inspiring. It reminds me of Hebrews 12. In the previous chapter it takes about men and women who followed God, who had gone before. Hebrews 12v1-3 says..

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

I'm so thankful for those who've gone before me and set me such an awesome example, I want to do the same for those coming after me.

To be honest I've completely lost track of what I'm trying to say! hehe..I've been typing this on and off for a few hours...but what's important is that God is faithful and He loves us. Press on, strain towards the goal! :)